I wanna start my post with a super BIG FAT FUCK. Im in my lowest point of mood now, & the feeling is just like the whole world is so f angry with me now. But well, i dont think that im in the wrong, seriously. You should know, i f hate it, but yet you still do this to me. No, i cant call you a bitch. But now, what can i call you now? Er.. Monster should do. Whatever, cause i cant be bothered by you anymore. Any one more fuck from you & trust me, i'll really hate you.
I should say that im more of upset than angry. YOU dint told me that we're going out tday, & so i went out with my friend. & suddenly you f called my phone & shouted at me, asked me why am i not home yet. Hello, its just 4 plus. You dint tell me, how am i expected to know? So cant you just use your f brain when you want to scold? You ringed me 5 f times when im in town, & hello, im walking, im moving, can i really feel the vibration in my pocket? Obviously no right? So WHY ARE YOU SHOUTING AT ME? Okay, i went home, & i found y'all gone. I ringed Dad & he says that you're all out. Oh, so is it my fault for not going out with you? Whos the one who dont wait for me? HUH?! You said i'll get it when you're home. Oh, like i care. I dont feel that its my fault. So why must i just stand there & let you scold? Its damn stupid, really. Im so not like the past who dont know how to defend myself & stand there like a moron for you to scold when im not in any f wrong. All these can just prove to me how this world can be SO F UNFAIR.
Whats family without love, care & concern? Whats family when theres only biased-ness? WHATS FAMILY WHEN Y'ALL DONT EVEN F TRUST ME?! Can you tell me whyyyyy? Did you know i cried? Did you know how disappointed i am when you said those? Whatever. I know i shouldnt trust you that much, i know i can never rely on you never again. I know this house is only a place for me to sleep & watch tv. I dint knew that there's something called family love, because i dont even f feel it...
I want to grow up quickly.. I wanna leave this place, i dont wanna live in this prison anymore.. People might think im evil for writing for these in my blog, but do all of you knows how i feel? Im really in a f pain. Because i doesnt feel as much happiness as i've got when im in my friend's house, though they are poor, though her mum have got some illness but i can assure, i like her family more than mine. Sometimes, disappointment come more than anything, sometimes i just yearn for a mother love but what did it turned back? Forget it...
I promise i'll be okay, really soon... Just let me cry for all i want... & plus, I LOVE OH YIFANG alot. (: